altruistic1

I was watching the “Today Show” this morning and they were showing how cigarette smoking affects your lungs and told examples of carbon monoxide in you after you smoke a cigarette.  Usually if something comes on television that I want to hear the girls will come out of the woodwork and demand something at that moment, and I try to get them to wait but that doesn’t help with what I wanted to hear because by that time the information is over with.  So when the piece about smoking was on I did not pay exclusive attention to it, but since I smoke and since I am not getting any younger, it hit home.

I think that smoking is a bad habit in one respect but it seems like people have to have some kind of vise, food, pills, drugs, alcohol,etc.,  I feel that things could have been worse.  I started smoking a long time ago to be ”cool” like my friends.  For a long time I could have stopped smoking and never even thought twice about it, but when my kids were small, I used the cigarettes to vent.  My last four children were like stair steps, so they were a handful.  I can remember saying to myself that the day that I noticed any ill effects that I would put them down. 

So much for that, but I have always tried to pay attention to how much I smoke and have never smoked over a pack a day.   I just have to convince myself that I can do without them, having the girls, I still use the cigarettes to vent.  I am not a pill taker because I am allergic to so much and am not able to chew gum.  I am just going to have to bite the bullet because I plan to be around a lot longer and I will not let them get the best of me, that is what I am going to have to keep telling myself. 

When I get the urge to smoke I will pull out a notebook and write all of the reasons why I do not want to continue to smoke, I have plenty of them and I will just keep writing them over and over.  Just like when I was in school, we had a teacher that would make you write a fist full of pages front and back if you interrupted his class, or anything else you may get in trouble for.

I do not wish this task on anyone, if you never have smoked do not start and then you will not have to figure out how to quit!! 

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