altruistic1

Just when I thought this year was going to be better than last year, up comes more problems.  I so wish I was a kid again and did not have to deal with nonsense.  I hope my attitude about everything has not been the factor that has put me where I am. 

Since I was brought up with all adults and no kids around, I was a small adult.  I had plenty of lessons on how to’s.  I had to do dishes by the age of five, I had to help with mowing, raking leaves, dusting, sweeping, helping my mothers foster sister who had multiple sclerosis.  I always had something to do, having 6 adults versus 1 kid you can bet someone had something in mind so I would stay busy.  There were 3 separate homes, allot of dusting and cleaning.  There was plenty of land to mow, gardens to weed, and flowerbeds to weed.  Animals to take care of and clean of course.

I am not complaining about my childhood or learning responsibility because I loved my childhood now.  I may not have thought so at the time but I loved it.  I am just a bit peeved at myself for letting things in my life get off track.  I have sucker written across my forehead and people love to take advantage of me.

I will sleep on these thoughts and see if I can come up with a better solution for myself.  I am tired of being in the rut I am in, so I am going to start digging deep.

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